Feeling's of the day

Wa !! I am still tired from the things that i did yesterday. I was working in CE(Crystal Edge) doing data entry today but half way through i fell asleep cause i was really really tired. Hehehe^^

Tomorrow is Saturday which means I can get to rest from my work and for the 1st time since i have came back from Russia, this Saturday doesn't come with a dinner that we have to prepare for my relatives who are coming to my house to see me and at the same time send of my sister. But, hehe^^ there is always a but... I just got news that one of our family's close friend is coming over tomorrow for dinner. ><" At least that is only 2 people so i think there will not be much preparation need to be done.

Also, tomorrow i will be going back to my secondary school to see my friends. At last!!! You wouldn't have know how long i have been waiting for this to happen. I am really anxious to see my friends again. To have a look at what has happened to them, how do they look now and other stuffs.

Haiz... Now that i have said everything i can. I can only think of 1 thing. The girl that has been on my mind since last year. My feelings for her started just before i went back to Russia. I never believe in long distance relationship but i really really want this to happen.

I haven't fall for a girl for this long. Sometimes, i just don't know what do girls think. Even though that it is already a known fact that girls may not mean what they say or do the exact opposite of what they just said, I still have no idea on how to read through a girls message. Whether she is trying to give me some tips on how she feels for me or is she just saying that in a friends point of view.

I am so confused that i have even tried to get help and ask my friends for their opinion on decephering what does her messages mean. I just hope that she feels the same way i feel for her and for her to understand the fear and uncertainty that i have deep inside my heart.

I can only try my best to let her see how much she means to me and how much i want to be beside her no matter what happens.